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To love a maid Chapter 4

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-Reader pov-

I didn’t think that leaving the estate would make me feel so empty inside, but I don’t think that it’s the estate I feel sad about leaving, I think it’s the memories that I’ve created with everyone that I will miss the most. We became so close and yet because I’m in danger I have to leave it all behind and forget them. My master is probably going to be so upset to know that I’m gone.

I ran through the city as far away as I could from my home. I wasn’t sure of where I was going but I knew it had to be far away, I recognized nothing of this part of the city. The women dressed in practically nothing, the men drunk and sleeping on the side of the street. No children around playing either, where have I ended up? With what little money that I did have on me I looked for a place to rest, I saw an inn that looked a bit empty. It was sketchy and I knew this from the look and smell of this place, but what choice did I have right now. ‘You’ve made it further than this as a child, you can stay one night in this place.’ You thought to yourself as you entered the inn. With your suitcase in your tight grip you stood at the front desk ringing the bell. “Hello?” You said a bit loudly ringing the bell on the desk.

The door with the word ‘manager’ opened up with a slam against the wall revealing a woman or man with long red hair, who strutted over to you with the biggest grin on his or her face. It frightened you as what you assumed was a he stood at the desk in front of you towering over you.  “How can I help you dear~” He said in a deep voice. It took you a while to respond to him due to the fear that was building up inside of you. “I’d like a room for the night please.” You said in a soft voice. The red headed man leaned on his elbows looking at you over his glasses. “You my dear look as if you just ran away from home and found yourself trapped by the big bad wolf.” His deep chuckle made a shiver go up your spine. He wasn’t far off from his statement; it did feel that way. “Right well, do you think you could get me my room now?” “Oh come now, talk to me first dear. What is it that you are doing all the way out here, you aren’t from here. And I can tell from the way you are looking at me.” His eyes held concern for the first time instead of amusement. What were you supposed to say to someone like this, surely they had to be crazy to just assume such things. Maybe you were tired or frustrated because of what has happened to you within the last few hours. But something about this man felt as if you would be safe with him.

“I couldn’t help but stare, in all my years and experiences I have never been to such a place or seen people like the ones outside. And you despite being a man, look like a pretty woman so I was trying to figure out which one you were no offense to you of course.” The man looking a bit taken back by my words, he stood up straight walking around the desk to me. “You really think that I look pretty, my you sure know how to flatter little ol’ me “I continued to stare at him, he was definitely interesting, which made my stay just a little bit better. I chuckled at his reaction and held up my bags. “So about that room Mr.__?” “You could just call me Grell dear, no need to be formal with me.” “Right well, Grell. About that room I’d like to get settled in if that’s alright. I had a really long day, I mean I don’t want to be rude but I hope you can understand?”

“Of course, if its anyone that understands the frustrations of a woman in love it’s certainly me~” Grell didn’t seem like such a bad person, looks definitely can be deceiving.  Grell walked out from behind the desk towards the stairs.  But what did he mean by ‘he understood the frustrations of a woman’ I never explained to him my situation yet he knew. We walked side by side up the stairs, Grell was humming a small tune to himself as we walked up. Anything was better than the silence between us.

-Ciel’s Pov –  (3rd and 1st person)

“You ran me ragged all day thinking that we had something urgent to do, and yet all we had to do today was pick up a delivery for some elderly woman.” “Master, do forgive me but I had to come up with some excuse for you to tag along, you wouldn’t have gone if I told you the truth.” “So you think it was okay to just string me along when I could have been back at home with (y/n)?!”

“Listen, about her Young master. I don’t think it would be wise to continue to see someone like her. She is going to bring you nothing but heartache and she is taking you away from your daily activities.” Sebastian replied in a calm tone. He looked down at his master hoping that he would understand where he was coming from, but all he saw was his young master getting angrier at him. “How can someone like you understand what I am feeling right now, you have never been in love before. Hell you can’t love and that is the problem. You don’t take my feelings into consideration, I am human damn it and I have needs.” “And those needs are just the same as eating and sleeping, you aren’t required to love another person, you are choosing to do so. And right now the one you are choosing to love and um let’s say ‘mate’ with is not the best choice.”

Closing his only visible eye he took a deep breath before looking at him again shaking his head. “You don’t understand; you are just a demon a being incapable of love. Now take me home, I want to see (y/n) she looked so hurt when she saw I had to leave her.”

Our carriage ride back was a silent one. Neither of us talking to each other since our little disagreement from earlier. I looked at the people we passed and couldn’t help but noticed a small child smiling so happily at their mother. It brought a smile to my face and I wondered if it will be that way if me and (y/n) decided to settle down together. I want our child to look as happy as that, not to have a care in the world and just be a kid. I knew what it was like to have to grow up before my time and it wasn’t a very fun lifestyle despite the perks that did come with it. I had all the money and free time I could ever ask for, but I had no one to share it with. I didn’t want our children to have to grow up the way I did. I want them to have the best so they can be that happy, surely (y/n) would feel the same as well.

We arrived back at the manor, Finnian and Mey-rin were standing outside with saddened looks on their faces. Stepping out of the carriage with the help of Sebastian. “what’s going on, are you guys alright?” I asked them. They froze at my question looking back and forth between the two making me very impatient and irritated. “Will you two stop being dumb for once in your lives and tell me what the hell is going on and why you two are suspicious.”

Mey-rin stepped forward hiding something behind her back. “Master, we found this in (y/n)’s room. It is addressed to whoever finds it, but I think you should be the one to read it. Me and Finnian looked at it already and we think it’s important for you to know. She presented the letter to me in shaky hands, I reached for the letter snatching it from her ripping it open.

To whom it may concern,

I am writing this letter to tell you how sorry I am to have to suddenly leave, it was something that I just had to do on my own and I couldn’t stay there and allow myself or anyone else to be hurt by my poor choices. I care about all of you very deeply, you are all my second family. But there is someone there who I care about in a deeper romantic kind of way. The young master of the household should not have to be endangered in his own home. Which is why it is best if I take my leave, I can’t let someone I have fallen in love with be put in harm’s way because something is after me, Sebastian was right when he told me that I should stop all romantic feelings for him because it will only cause him heartbreak. I could see that he was falling hard for me with each day we spent together and I bet as you read this to him or he reads this himself he is hurt right now.

I am sorry that things have to be this way, but it is for the best. I will never forget all that you guys have done for me, I truly appreciate it, I am even grateful to the master for allowing me to be a part of his life and experience something normal and good for the first time. He will always be in my thoughts and I hope you all continue to be happy and take care of yourselves properly. Please don’t hate me for my choice, I only want what is best for everyone. Love you dearly.

Sincerely, (Y/n)



I held the letter in my hand trembling a bit as I finished reading. How could she just leave me like that without saying goodbye, only leaving me a letter of apology. Why does it feel like every time I let someone in they just disappear from me? “Sebastian.”

“Yes young master?” “We are going to find her do you understand me. You caused this, you made her leave.” “But it was for your own good master, look at what she has done now. Look at yourself.”
“Does it look like I give a damn.” “I think you should think about this before you make a rash decision.” “Do what I said now…I don’t have time for you. It’s your fault in the first place that she is gone..whatever you said to her, you better apologize for it. And I mean it Sebastian, sincerely apologize for your actions.”

Walking away into the manor I didn’t look back at them as I made my way to the study, I was so heated about what he did to her. How could he, I trusted him. What does he have to gain from tearing us apart but we have something bigger to focus on.

I’m going to get my princess back.
Sorry that this took so long. I noticed that a lot of the people who used to read my story no longer do which is completely understandable since I haven't posted as often as I should. To make it up to you, and I know I say this all the time. I will definitely be posting more often, at least once a week so I can have something going again. But just remember that I am human and I do tend to be busy so you just have to be patient with me.  

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Can I B**** Slap Sebastion Yet? T>T